My purpose revelation

I was sitting here tonight and I went in to where my 3 yr old was watching a Rudolph special on ABC Family that I had recorded for him. He has had a not so good day, he is sick, whiny and very frustrating. I don't know maybe it's cause I had been so irritated and short with him but when I went in to check on him, I was overcome with this sense of sincere sorrow and love for the horrible way I've treated him today. I went in and told him how much I love him (to which he said "I love you too Mom" and then gave me a huge hug) which then made start sobbing. Then my sweet little tender heart 3 year old asked me what was wrong. and I said I just love you and that makes me very happy. He still looked concerned but sort of content with my answer, then he said "Mom, I just love you" It made me cry even more. I came out and started talking to my husband, he immediately asked me what was wrong, I said "I just realized my point in life, I need to be Jeremiah's Mom" I almost missed out on seeing him grow up, (not that he's anywhere near grown up) when I  almost let my grief over the loss of my own mom take me away from my son and husband. Tonight I will post a picture of my little family at the end of my post.