Beat down

Have you ever just been beaten and drug through the mud ( literally and metaphorically) so much that you just want to give up. Don't know who to talk to anymore because it seems everyone takes things the wrong way or goes off of heresay/ rumors. It feels like a constant battle. I can't be a people pleaser anymore. It's too goddamned exhausting! I seem to just be in this vicious cycle of doing ok then bam! I hit a wall of negativity that knocks me on my butt or the wind out of me. Some say I bring it upon myself. How???? Meh I don't even want to try to defend myself! Cause its pointless.